I have been exploring every corner of the whole world. Losing you so early was the reason for me to found you again and finding you it was the reason for me to live. A life was worth it. I failed, I never found you.
I had to abdicate my short life and go beyond it in the hope of finding what was now not my reason to live, but my reason to die. If I didn't fail in that was only because I thought you were guiding me. But the failure, even worst than the one experienced in my life, is now to realize you are not in this suspended universe. Where are you?
What I realize now is that you, father, you gave me life; then you took it away from me; finally, you are giving me the unique chance to explore a new existence with a purpose. That's the greatest gift. I know that when I will find you, souls or ghosts, we will forever be together.